Saturday, November 25, 2006

One.

Since my mad dash to the ER happened on our wedding anniversary, Jim and I decided that we would make every Saturday our anniversary for the rest of my life.

We're about to go out for breakfast (or maybe lunch as we're taking our own sweet time getting ready) and then we'll find something to mooch about with for a few hours. Sometimes we go to the river or the lake, but today I think we're going to stay close to home. We'll see. It doesn't matter where we go, every moment is so utterly special for us.

Something funny, I woke up at 3:30am and couldn't get back to sleep, so took an Ambien. It lasted for two hours. I was miffed, thinking I'd get a long sleep - went six and a half hours the night before on it. I just lay in bed and laughed to myself... sleep will come when it comes, obviously. It was a gorgeous sunrise though, sat with a latte (actually just remembered I have the machine as it was put away when we moved and forgotten), looked out the kitchen window and enjoyed feeling good before meds for a while.

The mean person mentioned in my previous post publicly apologised to me today. I spoke of the meaness, so thought it was only fair to speak of the apology too. To publicly apologise takes a certain amount of courage and I graciously accept the apology in the spirit with which it was intended.

"Heather I would like to apologize for my previous post. I guess I was having a bad day and took it out on you. My words were hurtful and for that I apologize. I stuck my nose in where it didn't belong. You are a strong person and I commend you in your fight. I wish you the best of luck in your battle."

Fair enough. I have no reason to believe it's not genuine, no matter who they might be.



Bit of a short, mellow post today, I woke up with this song running through my head and can't stop singing it. One, by U2.

Is it getting better?
Or do you feel the same?
Will it make it easier on you now?
You got someone to blame

You say
One love
One life
When it's one need
In the night
One love
We get to share it
Leaves you baby if you
Don't care for it

Did I disappoint you?
Or leave a bad taste in your mouth?
You act like you never had love
And you want me to go without

Well it's
Too late
Tonight
To drag the past out into the light
We're one, but we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other
One

Have you come here for forgiveness?
Have you come to raise the dead?
Have you come here to play Jesus?
To the lepers in your head

Did I ask too much?
More than a lot.
You gave me nothing,
Now it's all I got
We're one
But we're not the same
Well we
Hurt each other
Then we do it again

You say
Love is a temple
Love a higher law
Love is a temple
Love the higher law
You ask me to enter
But then you make me crawl
And I can't be holding on
To what you got
When all you got is hurt

One love
One blood
One life
You got to do what you should

One life
With each other
Sisters
Brothers

One life
But we're not the same
We get to
Carry each other
Carry each other

One

I Love You!

10 Comments:

Anonymous Shelley said...

Even when you're not using your own words, you're profound.

You even made me search out my old Achtung Baby cassete and ~hope this makes you smile~ I don't have a cassete player. My daughter showed me how to find the song online. *red face*

Happy Anniversary!

4:51 PM  
Blogger Carver said...

Heather I love the fact that you and your husband are having a happy anniversary every Saturday. That's such a great idea. As ever, Carver

3:55 PM  
Anonymous StanN said...

I am curious what union your husband is in.I was very disappointed in the response
from my Union Brothers.It's nice
to hear some people do have a heart.

StanN..retired local38IAFF

6:01 PM  
Anonymous StanN said...

I am curious what union your husband is in.I was very disappointed in the response
from my Union Brothers.It's nice
to hear some people do have a heart.

StanN..retired local38IAFF

6:01 PM  
Blogger King (Kathie) said...

Heather,

I look at your Blog everyday!! You are one special lady. In my weakest moments, you give me strength. You have such a unique way of looking at things and expressing yourself -- you are just so honest. You are my hero, woman!!

King (Kathie)

9:19 AM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

I don't know how you do it, but you do it every time. You have to survive for a very long time because I'm addicted to this and selfishly don't want it to end. I think the weekly anniversary celebration is fantastic, do you think you'll be tired of it when you're still doing it in ten, twenty, thirty, forty years time?

It could happen.
A

12:47 PM  
Blogger Sarah said...

Ah, that song brought back memories. I associate it with a boy I liked in grade 9. We danced to that song at a highschool dance and when I hear it, it brings me back to that moment because the feelings dancing next to him were so intense-- Just one of those moments.

There are only about 3 songs that I have strong physical associations to and that's "ONE", kinda funny that it means so much to you too. Mine was just a crush tho, your association is with your soul mate! What a wonderful man Jim must be to have attracted such a fabulous chick like you!

Anniversaries every Saturday is brilliant! Derek and I just recently made a new Sunday tradition where we alternate cooking a decadent dish from a recipe book for each other. Isn't dating again fun!?

Keep on lovin' life!

Sarah

9:35 PM  
Anonymous Bunnyassassin said...

Hi Heather,read the thread on ARFCOM..... Thinking of you and Jim.... I know you will keep fighting and my prayers are with you..... Keep your chin up...

Dave
(BA)

4:13 PM  
Anonymous Anonymous said...

Rest in Peace Heather. You are blesed and loved on this earth. You are loved in heaven. Stephanie.

7:45 PM  
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