Ignore my last two posts...

I'm sick of myself and feel like I'm going round in circles.

Word.



But I also feel like I might be getting somewhere... Remember how I said it's a process? I guess that sometimes you have to go around a few times in order to see all of the scenery.

I'm aware that I probably seem to contradict myself at times. But you have to understand, cancer is a seething mass of contradictory emotions. It really isn't black and white - well except for the "it sucks" part. I think we can all agree on that.

The funny thing is, I don't always realise how I'm feeling until I write about it. I often read back what I've just written and think, holy cow, where did THAT come from??

I can promise you this though; it's utterly real.

Thanks for keeping me company while I try to find my way...